Who the heck am I?

Recently I got a job that has been my goal for the past two and a half years. I was no nervous to actually get hired in a career that I have been aiming for, for what feels like forever. YAY!!!

I went through countless job applications and interviews and you wanna know the craziest part? I got this job because the owner at the company sat at MY BAR. The universe works in mysterious ways and I am so grateful.

ANYWAYS, it's been about a month and I actually love the job but I went through this huge moment (more like 2-3 weeks) of imposter syndrome. I felt like a straight up phony and moments where I was like "Who do I think I am? Why are people listening to me? Why did they even hire me?" Well, I will tell you, because I worked my little booty off and now I am at a job that I freaking love, I am learning so much, and it turns out that I am pretty good at this job 🤪

Starting this job has lead to so many conversations with my friends about eventually leaving the restaurant industry. I am currently still working as a bartender as well. I could tell you why, but that is boring. Continuing... these conversations that I have had involve the future and what I want to do next and how I see my life unfolding.

One conversation that has been repeated over and over again is that I have always seen two clear things in my future that I will not budge on. I will be a successful career woman and I will be a mom. I have always known this to be true and here is my specific reason. IF I ever choose to be a stay at home parent I will know that I am giving up my career because I have already have had a journey in, a choice that comes from knowing both sides of the equation. I want to be able to make that choice based on knowledge of being in that situation rather than living in the What If. I feel that would be the most fair for myself, my future hot ass husband, and my future tiny humans.

Living in the What If has become a huge drive in my life and has become my greatest fear. That is another reason why I am picky with who I let in my life and what I allow to be tolerated in my life.

So instead of living with the What ifs, let's achieve goals, travel as much as we can, live wherever we want to live, and do things that our older self would be proud to talk story about. (Whatever that looks like to you)

Okay woah that got deep and to be super truthful that is not even on my radar right now, I am in my single hot career girl era.

Cheers to being on the journey of creating goals and achieving them. OH I FORGOT TO TELL YOU GUYS, another goal that I have had since I moved here is to drive a pink moped...

I am pleased to announce that...

ALSO, shout out to all the women no matter if you want a career, want to be a stay at home mom, who juggle both, who never want kids, who want to get married, who want to stay single, and who show up every day to be the badass woman you are!!!!

ily and thanks for reading

xoxo

Jules